Wednesday, February 23, 2011

"Perfect Love Drives Out Fear"

Every little girl fantasizes about what their wedding will be; they dream about having the huge cinderella ball gown, and the prince charming that will come and sweep you off your feet.
We have this idea of "perfect love" stuffed down our throats that it is all we search for, and if we don't find it, we get so hurt and broken by it; we act like it's the end of the world and say "I just want to be single the rest of my life".
True and perfect (as perfect as earthly possible) love takes time! Think of it this way; you are a pearl. A pearl takes years to become perfect and beautiful. You're the same way! It takes years to get you ready; a lot of time, learning experiences, pressure, heart aches. It all gets you ready for that perfect person to come into your life. You can't rush that process, otherwise you're exposing the pearl when it's not fully ready, and therefore not perfect.
You can't rush finding your prince, you will only hurt yourself. God is still molding you into the person you will become. He sees who you are, and has the PERFECT guy set out for you! And if it's any consolation, your guy is still getting ready himself for you too! You both are in your oyster getting prepared for each other; for perfect love.
God sees you, He sees your wants, your hopes, your desires, your passions. He knows you better than anyone else, and He has a guy that matches all your expectations, all your qualities, all you could ever hope for.
As the bible says in Song of Songs 2:7 "Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires". I know that can be so  tough to hold back on, because we always want so dearly to love and to be loved, but it's not always the best time. It's always in God's timing. Of course we always want things when we want them, and we always think we are ready, when God knows... we're not. We can't rush something as precious and delicate as love; it's like a rose, it is such a beautiful and delicate flower, and if you pick it before its fully formed.. it will never be perfect, and will die before it ever could reach perfection. That's how we get hurt; we pick love before its ready, or what we get into our heads as love, when really, it's just strong feelings for someone.
When true love comes, you will know. And every body always asks, "how do you know though?" I can tell you from how I feel now, you will know. True love is so perfect, it brightens and makes your heart smile.
I have learned so much from past relationships, mainly my most recent one. There were so many signs of imperfection. There were things he would do, and I would get bothered by it, and try to look past it and say "it doesn't matter" because I thought I loved him. Perfect love contains no flaws. "All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you." Song of Songs 4:7.
You should never have to change yourself for the other person. You should know who you are, be content and happy with who you are, and know what you deserve.
It has taken me a long time to realize that, and if I knew what I know now a few years ago, I would of waited for that perfect guy. But through these experiences and heart aches, you grow stronger, and it forms you into that person that you will be for your prince charming.
I encourage you to read the book Song of Songs in the bible; it is the most beautiful love story I have ever heard, and brings me to tears every time.
I want to tell you guys, don't give your heart out to just anybody. It starts to lose meaning when you keep handing out pieces to every guy you date. Trust me, I know....
Love is as powerful as death; it hits you like a pile of bricks and knocks you off your feet.
Guard your heart, don't let just anybody in. Don't let the enemy sneak in to destroy. "The thief comes to only steal, kill and destroy" John 10:10.
I hope you will all guard your heart, and wait for the perfect guy for YOU. The greatest love story you will ever hear, is the one that God has planned out for you.
Know who  you are, and don't settle for any less. You all deserve to be treated like queens. Remember, just like it took time for you to be formed in your mothers womb, it takes time for you to be formed in love. Don't rush!
Hugs and kisses, Kat<3

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I Have Found My Purpose

Throughout your life, you always try and figure out what you are suppose to do as a career; what suits you best and what you feel happy doing. You want it to be something that you love, and something that you have a passion and a desire for. Sometimes, it can be more difficult than you might think.
You see people around you finding different things that they love, and doing coops, or experimenting in that field, and you're left questioning and wondering what is best for you, and what you will end up doing with your future.
We are always being asked from such a young age, "What do you want to do when you grow up?". We get told that all throughout elementary school, and when we finally hit grade 8, and it's time to prepare ourselves for high school; we get told to choose the courses that will prepare us, and that we need for our post secondary education. Yet, little of us know at that time what we want to do with our lives. We are only 14, and we are suppose to know what we want in life? What makes us happy? We have experienced so little in our life, that we couldn't possibly know at such a young age. Of course there are always those few who know, and do accomplish their career choice, but majority of us do not.

I went through many career choices before I came to my final conclusion on what I will be doing as a career, and I finally figured it out; first year of cosmetics.
Ever since I can remember, I had wanted to be a teacher for grades 1 or 2; I was set on it. I loved kids, and I would always pretend to be teaching a class in my bedroom. I knew that it was what I wanted to do. As I started growing up, getting up to grade 8, I was making plans of where I'd like to go to University and Teachers College. However, my grade 8 teacher knocked me off of the career path like a hurricane. I couldn't believe someone could just knock me down like that. Then I started working at a gymnastics club, where I fell in love with helping people with autism and other disabilities. That then became my career choice where I thought I wanted to be. I wanted to help those, and I was so good with communicating to them. I did a co-op for it when I was in grade 11, and thought it was great, but quickly learned that it is something I couldn't do as a career because I hated being in the classroom all day, and I didn't like that you would have to go to teacher conferences or meetings. I quickly realized that I love the kids, but it would be more as a volunteer job.
I'm not 100% sure how I came about the idea of being a makeup artist. I remember being 13, and my mom took me to get my makeup done on my birthday so I would learn how to properly do it. I loved seeing all the brushes that the artist was using, and I remember thinking "I want all of those". I somehow came across the joy and the passion of doing it, and did a co-op at the salon "Caryl Baker Visage" which was amazing and taught me so much.
From there, I was set on owning my own store one day, and having my own brand of my makeup. I went into first year of college having that goal set.
Little did I know, come mid-January, that would all change.
Coming towards the end of December, I watched a video from a youth convention I had gone to a few years prior. It was about our generation, and the troubles we face. (I'll post a link to the video). I then got a huge passion burning in me to reach out to these people and to want to help them any way possible; it is then that my career was forming in my heart, but I didn't know.
I started praying about it, because I didn't know how to live out this passion, and it was a huge fire in my heart. I wanted to reach out to everybody.
Well, my  prayers were answered. Mid-January, God spoke to me and said that I will be a motivational speaker for women; encouraging and inspiring them on the subjects of love and beauty. I have so much joy in this career, and have been inspiring women individually the past month. I am so excited on this gift that God has placed in my heart. I couldn't imagine myself doing anything else.
My dream is to reach out to every women in this world, to let them know that they are truly beautiful, and that  true love, is precious. I want to travel internationally and inspire the world.
I have no doubt, that I will accomplish much in my life.
Everything is starting to come together. I am getting opportunities, I am speaking wisdom, and have such a heart to love every girl out there.

I hope that this gives a little sense of hope and reassurance to someone out there, knowing that it does take time, and sometimes the best careers, come through many trials and tribulations. I wouldn't be where I am now, without going through many heart aches, and rough times of self-worthlessness. But now I know, I am here to bring women out of those tribulations, and bring them to the path of joy, self-worth, and love.

Love you all so much. I hope one day that I will be able to speak to you face to face, and encourage you in so many ways that the Lord has planned for you.
Hugs and kisses.. Kat<3

The video that started my burning passion.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gZnvK2abjpY